Once upon a time, there was a scared, fragile young woman who feared something bad was going to happen to her or, worse yet, to her children. She knew Jesus loved her, but she allowed the enemy to whisper in her ear and rob her of her peace. Things would be going well in her life, and the slightest hiccup would send her mind to the worst-case scenario. The Lord wanted to set her free from this fear, but to do so, He allowed her to endure some rigorous testing and trials. Needless to say, the next several years of her life were trying. Medical tests, two biopsies, and waiting for results nearly broke her.
Thankfully, the results were fine each time. But, in the midst of waiting, she came to the end of herself. She knew that this wasn’t the abundant life God wanted her to live. God didn’t want His daughter to be tormented about the future. He wanted her to trust Him explicitly, no matter how the test results would come back. She had a choice to make.
Thanks to the Holy Spirit’s intervention and some powerful revelation, she was set free.
I was set free.
This was nearly ten years ago, but God allowed me to go through a little retest this past month to make sure my faith was still strong. An all too familiar doctor’s appointment followed by a potential biopsy was in front of me. All I could think was, “here we go again.”
“What if” came knocking at my door. What if this time it was not the results I wanted? What if my string of favor had run out? I couldn't believe that I was reverting back to that scared, fragile woman. I thought she was gone. I thought I was stronger than that.
Then I remembered that I was. I didn't need to be a victim to these lies. I had been set free. “What if” couldn't torment me any more because God had delivered me. I chose to trust God with everything. I had power over my thoughts.
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. – 2 Corinthians 10:5
Long story short, I went back to the Dermatologist full of faith and peace. It didn’t matter what the next steps were, I had Jesus by my side. Wouldn't you know the area of concern was no longer a concern? No need to even biopsy.
Please don’t misunderstand, God doesn’t promise us a life absent of real challenges. I know that first hand too. But, He has peacefully brought me through those times as well.
Ladies, I truly believe God was checking my heart. He wanted to make sure that I hadn’t fallen back into an area that He had freed me from. I don’t know if you struggle with fear or anxiety or any other area of bondage, but there is freedom in Christ. And, if the Lord has already freed you, please don’t revert back to the area He delivered you from.
So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. – John 8:36